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Shawn was the type of guy that no matter what would help you out. If you needed anything or
if you were hurt he’d be there. Without a doubt, despite of your relationship with him, he’d be there.
It’s still hard to get over the fact that he is gone, and no matter what we do, he cannot come back.
It hurts a lot, but I know he’s happy wherever he is. And I also know, he is watching out for me.
I am very well aware everyone was upset because of his death. He meant a lot to everyone, and
all he cared for, cared for him in the same way. This honestly, hurt even more. Just seeing everyone
so sad, and upset, made me somewhat angry. I had gone through the “why did you leave?” and it
still made no sense. But we all know this was not his choice, but it still hurt.
I find myself wondering a lot, about how things would be if he were here. How would my life be
different? Never mind my life, how would I be different? With his death, it has made me more helpful
to people and ultimately, more understanding. As I got older, I realized that it was his time. That he
needed to go, and as much as it hurt, and still hurts, I can accept it now.
It’s funny seven years ago he was taken from me, not only me but all of us. And I can still remember
everything from that day. It’s like a movie, I slow down our last goodbye, I stop the last time I see
him and fast forward the rest. It hurts so much and brings tears to my eyes every time I think of
that day. But he knows we would do anything to have him back. And we know he’d do anything to
come back. Unfortunately, this can not happen. But, he knows that I love him with all I have, and
I know I will meet him in heaven.